14th of February

I watch the guys go running by
As the sun sets in the orange sky
They're all in the shops to buy
Things for their girls to make them feel nice

Don't know why all of a sudden
They need to show how much they love 'em
With cute stuffed sun bears and heart shaped chocs
Cheesy old cards that say 'Love Rocks'

They're placing ads in the papers
They've thought of places to go together
They're praying for good weather
And I'm watching the sun go down...
Guy walks up, he's next to me
We're looking at the sky but there's nothing to see
I'm just glad not to be alone

I don't like stuffed bears, hate heart shaped chocs
Wouldn't ever buy a card that said 'Love Rocks'
I'd never place an ad in the papers
And I wouldn't think of where to go until later
The sun's gone down, it's an empty sky
We're still there, me and this guy
Don't know why, but we stood right there
And I'd give anything, to have the day that he did

I don't have a worry
Not a care in the world
Fourteenth of Fenruary
And I don't have a girl
I try to say that I'm happy
That it's just another bloody day
Fourteenth of February
Why don't you love me...

He gave her the bear, she read the card
She hated it, but she forced the smile hard
He took her for a long walk in the park...
And then they got lost in the dark
She got scared and she caught his arm
I asked him to, but he wouldn't go on...

He turned around he was looking at me
I knew what he was expecting from me
He must've though I had a nice story, like his...
And we were looking at the sky with nothing to see
And I told that I'd had a nice day
But I'd give anything to have the day that he did

I don't have a worry
Not a care in the world
Fourteenth of Fenruary
And I don't have a girl
I try to say that I'm happy
That it's just another bloody day
Fourteenth of February
Why don't you love me...

Oh, let's all guess why I wrote this one...duh. Well, just so you know, it's Exactly how I feel right now. The song is all depressin because I've been studying Socail studies for my boards. Yes, that subject does cause depression.

Echo

Nothing I do is mirrored by the world around me
Nothing I wear becomes a theme
Nothing I feel gets felt the same
Nothing I say will be said again

I'm a drop in this ocean
A bee in this hive
I'm a leaf on this tree and I have a dream
So-does-everybody-else
Listen to yourself!

Yea, do you hear it?
Don't you know what that is...
Yea, do you hear it?
So-do-I
=That is the echo in an empty mind= (4)

I walk on two feet ... like everybody
I want to feel ... like everybody
I think that I can change the world
I think I'm different, LIKE EVERYBODY DOES

Stop, listen to yourself!
Block out all the noise!
Yea, do you hear it?
SO-DO-I
=That is the echo in an empty mind= (4)

Do you want to make a difference, join the club
Do you think that you are special, everyone does
Maybe this song, isn't original
But why should I, give a fuck

The world around us spins, but we haven't moven since
The ground's not gonna move for you, you have to bend your knees yourself
And if things aren't going smoothly, you're in a mess
Walk on...and save your skin

If you're unique you're nothing new
Everybody else is just like you
Everybody's special, everybody's right
Maybe that's the reason we get into so many fights

But if you're a drop in the ocean, splash around
If you're a bee in the hive, make your buzzing loud
If you're a leaf on a tree, be the last to fall
If you've got a dream, tell everyone!

You could try, to hold it in
In al this noise, in all this din
But you can't keep it down, It's much too loud
It's in all of us, the sound...

...If you think you're different , we're all the same...
NOTHING YOU SAY WILL BE SAID AGAIN

Listen to yourself!
Did you hear it this time?
Did you hear it?
SO-DID-I
=That is the echo in an empty mind= (4)


This is just a random song. Wrote it after I got my preboard 2 results, so maybe it might have something to do with that. But I don't really see the connection, the song's about the loss of individuality, (it's a milder version of RAGE) and hey, wow, no romantic stuff in this one. Achievement.

Some Time

Everything is moving too fast
Good times move on, tough ones last
I can hear my life screaming past
Dragging me along, no resistance
And I
Need some time
To set myself allright
Some time...
Sometime, I'll have to let you know
Sometime, I'll have to watch you go
Sometime to watch it all unfold
Sometime...

Stop. To smell the roses
Feel. The thorns beneath
Pause. And do nothing
But I can't-control-my-my-feet...
Now everybody's moving past me
Nobody's stopping to ask me
Why, I'm not moving
Why, I'm not with the crowd
Everybody looks like they're singing
But no one's really singing along

Sometime to say something
Sometime to build anything
Sometime to do nothing
Sometime...

*Rap*
The treadmill's moving too fast, I keep up
And I keep falling down, I get up
I keep running out of time, Just my luck
This is the pace of life, and it sucks
And it sucks, Just my luck
I get up just to keep up *rap over*
When I'm only running against my self
Sometime, just to let you know
Sometime, so I can watch you go
Sometime, so that I can have you...

...sometime...
You'll be leaving
...sometime...
Me bereaving
...sometime...
And I need it
...sometime...
I really mean it


I'd trade the end of my life away
Just for sometime today

And I
Need some time
To set my self allright
Just-for-you
Sometime....


Ah, I just realised it's akready mid-january, and my school life is over. The song's pretty realistic with my usual stupid inner romantic lyrics weaved in. Joy to the freakin' world.

Everything you do

I've been angry
I've been sad
Thought this the worst life
Anyone could've had
Everybody tells me I'm not okay
Just spoke to you for a while and that's made my day

I'm not crazy
I'm not mad
I'm not head over heels
I don't think bad
There's no room in me for anything but you
Because I've fallen in love with everything you do
Coz Everything you do ( Looks so beautiful )
Every thing you do ( To me, To me)
Coz Everything you do ( Looks so beautiful)
Everthing you do ( To me, To me, To me)


Why does everything
Suddenly feel so good?
Why does nothing ever
Change my mood?
Why do I keep smiling
Hours after you're gone?
How do you make me feel
Like you can do no wrong?
Why do you try to tell me
That you're not perfect
You'll never make me believe
That you're anything less
Why do you pretend
That you don't know the way I feel?
Don't you know whatever you do, looks beautiful to me

That stone on the road
That torn shirt that had to go
That test I flunked in,
Feels so Good,
Because I've fallen in love with everything you do
Coz Everything you do ( Looks so beautiful )
Every thing you do ( To me, To me)
Coz Everything you do ( Looks so beautiful)
Everthing you do ( To me, To me, To me)


I'm not crazy
I'm not mad
I'm not head over heels
I'm more than that
I'm always there to watch you go by
Someday I'll have the guts and that's when I
Will speak out, break out, let myself get mowed down
I'll have to take my chances, and I'll take it no doubt
Because there's nothing wrong that you could do to me
Don't you know whatever you do, looks beautiful to me

I'm not crazy
Who am I kidding
I'm not mad,
I'm so much more than that
I am, I am, I am nothing too good
But I think I've fallen in love with everything you do
Coz Everything you do ( Looks so beautiful )
Every thing you do ( To me, To me)
Coz Everything you do ( Looks so beautiful)
Everthing you do ( To me, To me, To me)


Ah...fond memory. Fond recent memory. No, I'm not telling, shoo.

Rage

Been trapped inside a wall of trust
Afraid to break it, I give up
Why does everyone know me so much
That I can't be myself...

I'm in a RAGE
But I haven't told a soul
Everybody thinks I'm so-and-so
I feel like going BERSERK
But I don't wanna hurt
I'm in a RAGE
Can't let it out, it's in my head
Sometimes wish everyone I knew was dead
But that's something I couldn't stand
I wish it but I wouldn't ever let it happen

I'm in a RAGE in a cage that I built on my own
To block out everyone I shut the door
But even I can't get out anymore
It sucks and it feels worse than before

I'm in a cage in a rage
And everybody goes
Thinkin' I'm such a nice guy, oh
How I wish I could just let them know
What I really feel like, Let everybody decide
I wish my cage would go away just one time
So i could let you know I love you
That I hate you, I can't stand you
People think they know me
But it's not like I do
The darkness, it surrounds me
The light tries to avoid me
So all the rage I've built inside, Blinds the world around me
And I'm shining with the rage that I've got against myself
Spend some days in my shoes
My life is my hell

And I can't change it,
I'm this way, because of me
So there's no one I can blame
It's all a 360
I'm the one who built this cage
And I try to make it go,
I try to make it go away
I'm consumed by my rage
But everything I feel stays inside of me
That's the way I am, That's the way this is
And I can't hink, I've shut down
No one left but me
This wasn't meant to be
So

I'm in a RAGE in a cage
That doesn't have a door
I'd try to escape
But there's nowhere left to go
I'm in a RAGE in a cage
And I've locked myself away
I am, I am
Too different to be me
This is why I need you
To free me from myself
I need someone with whom
I don't need to pretend
Lend me your heart, I'm falling apart
But I'm always held together by my RAGE

I'm in a RAGE in a cage that I built on my own
To block out everyone I shut the door
But even I can't get out anymore
It sucks and I feel worse than before

It's pretty obvious I was angry. At what? At having to behave differently with different people all the time
It's pretty sucky to have to do that all the time. Trying to impress people is really what screws me up, but I keep doing that anyway (I'm 15, c'mon, there are people (generally of the opposite sex) that I try to impress without knowing it.)

Failed

Try, Try, Try again
Fall down and get back up again
That's what they said
I've tried too much
I've fallen and it hurts
I-don't-need-this-pain
I've failed, Yes I've failed
I didn't make the mark
I've Failed, Yes I've failed
I'm out luck
And everybody tells me to get up
But I don't think I can, not again
I've got too many stepping stones to success
Jack of all trades but Master of a lot less
I't never happened to me before
But it's happened and I don't know
How to deal with it, Should I be upset
I've failed and I'm going to have to live with it

Try, Try, try again
Fall down, get back up again
They never told me that in the end
You gotta do it all over again

and again and again, don't ever stop
and again and again, till the goin' gets tough
and again and again, so the tough'll get goin'
Listen everybody my snowball's rolling
I've failed, yes I've failed
But I won' t stop
I've failed, yes I've failed,
Ain't gonna let up
I've faile Yes I've failed
And everybody tells me to get up

Try, try, Try again
Fall down get back up again
The never told me that in the end
You gotta do it all over again

Let's let this time be history
Next time it'll be a different story
Dissapointment anger shame disbelief
Wild thoughts, the darkness begins to leave
Sometimes you have to be
A failure to be complete

Try, try, Try again
Fall down, get back up again
They never told me that in the end
You gotta do it all over again

no points for guessing the inspiration for this one. Flunked in Chem. Got bored. Wrote this tripe.

Stoopid

I feel so stupid, everything went wrong
I did something stupid, now I'm alone
I guess I missed my only chance
I guess I'll never get that dance
I guess I'll have to stand all alone again.
I don't know why I told you what I did
But I just couldn't hold it in
Please...don't leave my hand

It's just me, I'm stupid
I don't know what to say when
It's just me, I'm stupid
I didn't know what to do then
It's just me I'm stupid,
And I had to tell you,
Coz I just couldn't let you
Go away
Not knowing a thing
A piece of my heart, It's going and it's gone
So I was stupid, So I was stupid,
So I was stupid this time...

I really like you,
But I didn't know how to tell you,
And that's why
I keep walking by
And I'm smiling as I
Keep bumping into things looking at your face
There's not a trace
Of my heart, In your mind
You don't know how much I
Feel good when you smile...
You had no clue, How much you
Meant to me, Don't you see
Hey, That's why I was stupid to today.

It's just me, I'm stupid
I don't know what to say when
It's just me, I'm stupid
I didn't know what to do then
It's just me I'm stupid,
I really had to tell you,
And that's why I did
I couldn't hold it in
I wasn't thinking, I let my heart spill
This is just me, I'm just like this
When it comes to you, Yes,
I'm stupid.

You can guess the inspiration for this one. No, I haven't proposed. That's the gutsy part. Though this is probably how I will feel when I eventually, someday, maybe, do.