Rage

Been trapped inside a wall of trust
Afraid to break it, I give up
Why does everyone know me so much
That I can't be myself...

I'm in a RAGE
But I haven't told a soul
Everybody thinks I'm so-and-so
I feel like going BERSERK
But I don't wanna hurt
I'm in a RAGE
Can't let it out, it's in my head
Sometimes wish everyone I knew was dead
But that's something I couldn't stand
I wish it but I wouldn't ever let it happen

I'm in a RAGE in a cage that I built on my own
To block out everyone I shut the door
But even I can't get out anymore
It sucks and it feels worse than before

I'm in a cage in a rage
And everybody goes
Thinkin' I'm such a nice guy, oh
How I wish I could just let them know
What I really feel like, Let everybody decide
I wish my cage would go away just one time
So i could let you know I love you
That I hate you, I can't stand you
People think they know me
But it's not like I do
The darkness, it surrounds me
The light tries to avoid me
So all the rage I've built inside, Blinds the world around me
And I'm shining with the rage that I've got against myself
Spend some days in my shoes
My life is my hell

And I can't change it,
I'm this way, because of me
So there's no one I can blame
It's all a 360
I'm the one who built this cage
And I try to make it go,
I try to make it go away
I'm consumed by my rage
But everything I feel stays inside of me
That's the way I am, That's the way this is
And I can't hink, I've shut down
No one left but me
This wasn't meant to be
So

I'm in a RAGE in a cage
That doesn't have a door
I'd try to escape
But there's nowhere left to go
I'm in a RAGE in a cage
And I've locked myself away
I am, I am
Too different to be me
This is why I need you
To free me from myself
I need someone with whom
I don't need to pretend
Lend me your heart, I'm falling apart
But I'm always held together by my RAGE

I'm in a RAGE in a cage that I built on my own
To block out everyone I shut the door
But even I can't get out anymore
It sucks and I feel worse than before

It's pretty obvious I was angry. At what? At having to behave differently with different people all the time
It's pretty sucky to have to do that all the time. Trying to impress people is really what screws me up, but I keep doing that anyway (I'm 15, c'mon, there are people (generally of the opposite sex) that I try to impress without knowing it.)